Pregnancy forces us to have patience with the process of growth and development. As a culture, we want everything instantly. But Mother Bear wisdom doesn’t work that way. You have to allow your pregnancy to reach fruition. And you have to wait for labor to begin.
Mother-Daughter Wisdom, Christiane Northrup, M.D.
The kind of pregnancy that I am writing about here is not limited to the creation of babies. In my case I was pregnant with and gestating the launch of my meditation course. I had taught the course several times in my home and now I was reformatting it for an online release. My early thoughts were that this would not take long. My apprehensions were more around the technical aspects of setting up a membership site. So I set a target date for the release of the course and set to work.
But the editing and reformatting seemed to have a pace of its own. The process moved slowly as if I were taking an advanced version of the course, stirring up the resistance that needed to be released. There was no getting near the material without being affected.
Deadlines came and went, exposing the artificial imposition of these dates in my attempts to take control of the process. During this time I came across the above quote in my reading of Mother-Daughter Wisdom. It resonated in my experience, a sure sign asking me to take note.
The coursework continued to progress ever so slowly. Meanwhile, in my peripheral vision, I kept noticing magical little synchronicities. Those small “coincidences” that were confirming my knowing where I had doubts, soothing my insecurities, reminding me that I was headed in the right direction.
Then I heard Dr. Christiane Northrup, on her radio show “Flourish” on www.HayHouseRadio.com, quote astrologer Daniel Giamario, saying that “mercury retrogrades are simply to remind us that things are not logical and linear the way we think they are supposed to be.”
By now all signs were pointing in the same direction. That is to say that in “Goddess Time” nothing ever gets cranked out, everything happens in its own time.
I came to see that Goddess Time allows for all aspects of the process to matter. Those magical synchronicities that boost our belief in the work we are doing; the spiraling back of the forward moving path that creates breathing room, allowing us to integrate newness; and the constant reminder that it is about the journey even when the goal is the motivator.
In the end I love the course that I birthed, even though its labor was six weeks overdue according to my artificial schedule. But I have been just as deeply affected by my understanding of how my belief in linear time tends to ignore or trample over many aspects of the process that reside in the realm of the subtler feminine energies. In terms of our personal well-being, it is integrating these aspects of the process that is most meaningful.
I will continue to set goals and create timetables. But I have a much deeper respect and appreciation for the vast and nourishing wisdom of Goddess Time. Because in the end it really is all about who we have become in the process.
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